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| Time: | 1:13 pm. |
| Mood: |  contemplative. |
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i sleep through the morning and wake up and say, damn, it was just a dream after all.
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Wednesday, April 19th, 2006
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| Time: | 4:25 am. |
| Mood: |  confused. | | Music: | royal tennenbaums soundtrack. |
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it's 4:25am. things are wrong. i don't know where my cellphone is. the cast is unstable. the show is unstable. and i have to write a ten page paper.
and a four page paper.
my heart hurts.
and all the while, i'm wondering if i'm ever doing the right thing anymore.
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| Time: | 1:42 am. |
| Mood: | accomplished. | | Music: | Children, Children - Bat Boy. |
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tonight we staged "children, children" for the show and it looks really, really good. one week from tomorrow is the first show. no really, one week from today.
holy moly.
i got into a writing class. really exciting.
and and and
i am really, truly happy. my friends are awesome. we threw a big surprise party for joggo lago for his birthday and it was really sweet and really fun.
and and and
(i think i feel at home).
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lately i am everywhere all at once.
all at once i have to think about rehearsals for today, tomorrow, next friday.
all at once i have to think about next semester, this summer, jya, bat boy, my psych exam tomorrow.
my mom emailed me and asked me what i wanted for my birthday.
i didn't even realize it was coming up.
i'm everywhere all at once.
i feel disconnected from my closest friends and family in the oddest of ways - like i know that they are with me always, but i don't talk to them nearly enough.
they are lovely because they understand, but i miss them nonetheless.
i'm everywhere all at once. i'm here at VC, i'm at home, i'm in maine, i'm in rehearsal, i'm in class, i'm in bed, i'm awake and dreaming.
i can't believe i'm directing this show.
i can't believe i'm going to be a student fellow next year.
but i can believe that i'm doing so much, and i feel so undeniably happy about it.
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"oh shit, i left my retainers in the bathroom." (thinks for a moment) "no wait, i'm wearing them."
i love my roommate.
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Thursday, December 15th, 2005
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tonight i saw:
- a solid portion of the vassar community out on the quad to scream (primal scream) as the unofficial beginning of finals. it was an awesome sight/sound.
- two naked men
- these two naked men were on unicycles
- these two naked men were on unicycles outside in the snow (still many inches on the ground) and the temperature was 2 degrees.
- my hallmates and i, gathered around our makeshift 6-foot plastic christmas tree, listening to ella fitzgerald's swingin' christmas, opening up secret santa gifts one by one, cheering for each one, one by one, smiling
- a champagne toast as a hall group, smiles, hugs, laughter.
- hugging roommates, nana next to me and alana laying across our laps. i like having roommates. i like having really really awesome roommates.
tonight i felt:
- this sense that this is where i'm supposed to be.
- this sense that it will indeed be good to be home.
- this sense that maybe, just maybe, there is still something new in the air.
tonight i realized:
- i lose time so much at vassar. days run into days, weeks into weeks. did anyone else not know that christmas is just a little more than a week away?
and for the first time in a very long time, i actually felt like writing here.
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Thursday, September 29th, 2005
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Just in case you were ever confused why exactly I am so crazy, observe this year's family photograph:
(Top: Chris (my stepmom), Middle Row: Emily (stepsister), Me, Bottom Row: Dad, Ian (stepbrother), Nora (sister))
Although Dudley was allowed to be in the picture (under Ian), Butterscotch was excused from this year's picture after the fiasco two years ago in which the whole family (including Dudley) happily faced the camera, except Butterscotch who chose to show her ass, making the whole Christmas card thing entirely unattractive.
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Sunday, September 25th, 2005
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And now that I've been at school for almost a month, I spend a lot of time thinking about home. It isn't so much the way it used to be - no longer do I spend my late night hours missing the comfort, the care, the friends, the smiles of those who know me, and the simple fact that everyone knew me at home. Instead now, it's a loving longing - one without pain - one just that sits and waits - one that looks forward to returning home but loves being here too.
And I have so much to say and so much to tell, which is why I haven't been here. Because how could I ever translate this place into words? It is too soon. Which is why I almost don't feel guilty for writing. Because I know that I could never say everything I want to.
But I do feel guilty. And I will start writing again soon - here, and in my life.
People here call me Katharine. A new world has begun.
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surprisingly not stressed.
excited.
amused.
sleepy.
peaceful.